A Tiny Thing

I am still pregnant don't worry. The issue here is my tiny baby girl isn't growing the way she should be. I am 28 weeks pregnant and Katie is measuring behind in all kinds of ways. Her head measures at 26 wks, mid-section 24 wks, but her legs are only at 21 wks. I have had trouble with dates and measurements through this whole pregnancy and not knowing what is going on is driving me crazy. When I went in last month Dr Smith, whom I love as a doctor, said we needed to watch her legs because that can be a sign of Downs Syndrome. Colt and I prepared ourselves and talked about all the things we would do if our baby had special needs and waited for our next appointment. When I went in yesterday I held my breath as he put the ultrasound to my growing tummy. (I am starting to hate that machine) We saw her wriggling in there and heard her strong heart but when he took her measurements my heart sank. Why isn't she growing the way she should be? When I was pregnant with Emma everything was right on schedule and there were no problems. This pregnancy has been full of questions and concerns. How can you have a 8lb baby and then have such a tough time getting your next to grow? Dr Smith made an appointment for us to go to the Maternal Fetal Medicine department at the IMC hospital next week. These are specialists for high risk pregnancies and they should be able to help us find out what is going on with baby Katie. Dr Smith said the worse case would be that she can't grow in my womb and would have to be delivered early and spend the first few months of her life in NICU. Best case would of course be that she picks up the pace and has a giant growth spurt and is delivered without any complications. In the middle somewhere is a possible birth defect or special need. I think I can handle any of those I just don't want to lose her. My problem now is the waiting for an answer. Researching what might be the problem just makes me blame myself and find scarier reasons why it could be. Not what I need when I am bordering on high blood pressure. Maybe this is a test of my faith and patience. I am not a fan of this lesson as you all know. In the meantime I have been grounded to the couch per my worried hubby's instructions and accepting the help I can get from family and friends. Any Prayers and positive thoughts are welcome in our direction.

Emma at 10 days old