Tender Moments

Today was a good day with Mini. My great friend Emily hooked me up with her sister-in-law who is an amateur photographer and we met at the hospital to take some pictures. When we got to Katie's room I wasn't sure if we would be able to take any because Ruby her nurse said she had a tough morning. With preemies they have to routinely check their brain for bleeds (katie hasn't had any) and they need to check their hearts for holes or malfunctions. When they check the heart they use an ultrasound machine. Most mom's know how yucky and uncomfortable an ultrasound can be, imagine how it is for a 1 pound baby. The probe they use for babies is about the size of a permanent marker but to her it's like a baseball, not to mention that yucky gel. It took the tech about a half hour to complete the procedure. Katie didn't tolerate it very well as you can imagine. Ruby gave her some morphine after wards to make her more comfortable. She was all cuddled up and asleep when I got there. Jenny and I asked Ruby if we could take a few pictures and since Mini was comfortable we had a photo shoot. It was so fun. Ruby helped us pose her a little and we got to put things into her bed. I can't wait to see how they turned out. After we finished with pictures and Jenny left I changed Mini's bum and was going to leave. I haven't held Katie since she was a week old. I have had plans to ask and try to hold her several times but things just hadn't worked out. Today because she was such a good girl we both got a special treat. We got mommy and Katie time. Dave her RT came and suctioned her lungs and helped Ruby move her into my arms. I got a little nervous when he moved her because he unhooked her ventilator. I was so scared that meant she was going to stop breathing all together but he hooked her back up once she was in position and it was like she didn't even notice, thankfully. Oh how wonderful it is to feel her tiny body cuddle up to my chest and breathe with me. Sometimes I think she smiles when she hears my voice. I told her about Emma's favorite things, princesses, and how Daddy came to visit her and she was sleeping. I talked to Ruby about Utah football and Katie had her eyes open listening to me. She wriggled her toes and rubbed me with her hands. I love to see her and to get to feel her soft skin against mine makes all the time I am not with her disappear. It might sound strange because she is in a hospital and they don't put sweet smelling lotion on her, but my baby has the yummiest scent. She smells like heaven. She calms my nerves and eases the worries I have for her. I know I keep saying it but Katie is so pretty. She really is a sweet baby. She makes her wants known and I think she likes to tease some of her nurses. She is so good for her favorites and a stinker for those she doesn't know or like. :) One of her nurses put this cute headband on her when I visited Friday. So adorable!

Thank you Heavenly Father for my precious baby girl.